Line Loop from Heaven

The Love for a Child and the Line Loop from Heaven

This blog is just a simple line of thought, yet a most profound one. It is about the love one feels for a child and what it did for me.

Despite being very devoted to healing and self-realization, to Love of God, Love of Truth, I am a stubborn one. Call me a stiff-necked Jew. I knew how all-important Love is. Know it like the back of my hand. Feel it? Embrace it? Not always. The knowledge sometimes dwells like a fat king up in the palace of the mind, and doesn’t want to get off his lazy ass and go down to the people to do the love that is his kingdom to rule over. And especially the self-love part. Love they neighbor as you love yourself is a fundamental premise of both Judaism and Christianity. And the math adds up to the point that you will love your neighbor as you actually love yourself, so, ahem, love yourself.

I recognized in the early days of my having an auto-immune disease (myasthenia gravis) that I was quite deficient in the self-love department, or rather, what you’d see in the self-love department was a taskmaster, pushing myself, harsh self-criticism and strict imposition of perfection that were impossible to satisfy. The result was the faithful army of white blood cells obeying the commands of the master – Self Attack!!! So the last twenty or so years have been an ongoing struggle to love myelf, to find a reason to love myself, to shed the falsities that blocked me from the goblet of auto-appreciation. I’ve ebbed and flowed. Done better some days than others. Haven’t passed with flying colours but would have made it through the Love Thyself University with a passable GPA and did better in the later years than the earlier ones. But something was missing. A key point. A lesson where the professor laid it out just right for me to get what I was missing.

The line of truth that I was missing came to me when I became a father.

Everyone was surprised when I became a father. Those closest to me the most. They, and myself included, never thought I would be a father. I was very absorbed in my work and my path to self-actualization was so high up on the priority list that anything that could, in any way deter or delay me from spending all the time I needed to become enlightened and liberated, was viewed with vigorous abhorence. It was a land of much self, ironic since that land of self lacked love of self, so we could write it SELF love land, but the font size of love should have been like a 4 and the SELF like a 20. There was little room for others.

When I found out I was going to be a father I pretty much imploded and turned to swiss cheese. I actually had a massive return of the symptoms of the auto-immune disease because of the conflict that occurred in knowing I would have another to take care of and couldn’t spend all the time I needed mastering myself, or brewing up the concoctions in my alchemy lab that would yield an elixir of enlightenment and long life. I know now that the need to master myself came from that deficiency in loving myself and was that illusory sought after compensation that we think will get us what we want, but what actually becomes a monster that is never fed with enough taskmastering, or self-criticism at not having achieved the empty goal. In short, arriving at the doorstep of my worst fear, I freaked out, got morbidly sick, and nearly died on several occasions.

In the throes of the weakness of my illness, I railed against Heaven that my life should take such a turn for the worse and all that hard work I had pummeled out on the path of self-mastery was now hijacked by this tiny human showing up to be loved and protected. I was mad at God and thought, literally believed, something had gone terribly wrong.

The Line Loop From Heaven

Man plans and God laughs, right? Or, the even more common cliché, God knows what’s best for us, played in my mind and I sought to apply it as a feeble consolation, but it just got to hang out with the lazy King and did little for satisfying my suffering soul. Until one day it just made sense. A Line from Heaven wove itself right through me, dragging the king from his indolent dominion, bringing me to continuing education at Self-Love University and making another important piece crystal clear for me.

It all happened when I was watching my daughter play on the floor. It hit me so hard that my eyes flooded with tears and my chest expanded well beyond the confines of its physical parameters. I realized how much I loved her. So much. So much it’s beyond words. So much it feels like there’s an imminent internal explosion . In that awareness, I saw that I am not defective. I am actually capable of Love. That revelation in and of itself upgraded my GPA at Self-Love U greatly. But the Line from Heaven wasn’t finished. It had to come full circle and loop back to the Source of it all.

The Heavens were trying to tell me something. When I got this next lesson, a deep silence rocked my soul and the tears escalated not in volume, but in intensity, and I sobbed like a soldier who gets to see his family as he returns from war, who had thought he would die in that muddy trench.

What I realized was the answer to the question, “If I love my child so much, how much does God love me, being a child of God and all?”

And the next question and answer was born from the Line of Heaven continuing in me helping to complete the circle, the loop. “If God loves me as much as I love my child, then can I not love myself?”

Of course, The Lord loves a ton more than I have been capable of and certainly does work in mischievious ways. What I thought I wanted, what I thought I knew I needed, was like an endless fruitless effort banging on an empty drum compared to the majesty that came from surrendering to my worse fears. In having a child, the Creator, who is Love, got to show me what I am calling the Line Loop from Heaven. I have no doubt about how much I love this child. This showed me that I can love. That paved the way for recognition of how much God loves us being His/Her children and to close the loop, all it took was the last step. If I can love this child so much, and God loves me, can I then not love myself as much?

That closed the Line Loop from Heaven for me.

God is Good. God is Love. We are God. 

Shalom Aleichem. Salaam Alaikum. Peace be with you.

Dr. Moshe

A Universal Jew, Kabbalist, huge fan of Yeshua, Moshe Daniel Block (aka Dr. Moshe) is like a Da Vinci of our times. He's a Naturopathic doctor, Homeopath, Musician, Author, Inventor, and Hermeticist. He graduated from the Canadian College of Naturopathic Medicine in 2000 and then completed the Homeopathic Master Clinician Course (HMC) in 2003. Dr. Moshe is also the author of the inspiring books: Holistic Counseling -Introducing the Vis Dialogue (2016), The Revolution of Naturopathic Medicine (2004), and The Last Four Books of Moses on Kabbalah (2004). He is the inventor of the moe-joe cell, an alternative fuel-cell and energy healing device. He was personally diagnosed with myasthenia gravis in 1995, a potentially fatal autoimmune disease. He cured himself and has become a leader in mind-body medicine, teaching other health care practitioners in his popular course Holistic Counseling. He is the creator of the folk-rock music album The Psalngs of Solomon and is the founder of the website

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  • Teresa
    January 25, 2017 at 7:52 pm

    Moshe, in my opinion this is your most important blog post thus far. Your daughter is a little miracle, blessing baby. Our children teach us SO MUCH! Hang on to your hat because this is just the beginning! They are also little mirrors of our own souls. Which was the hardest part for me in some ways, yet produced the most growth in me as well. Thankfully you are “getting it”. Otherwise you could pass that wound on to her. My constant concern while raising my children was that my “wounds” from my very dysfunctional childhood would somehow have a detrimental effect on my children. I prayed constantly that God would protect them and would heal me so that I could be a good mother for them.
    I am so thankful for what God is showing you! I have absolutely no doubt that you are probably the most loving daddy to walk the soil, at least in a long time 😊
    I do feel like, aside from people with full-blown narcissism ( which some say is rooted in self-doubt), there is really an epidemic of “self-hate” in our culture. At least here in America. I see it all the time and refuse to participate in it anymore. Women are the worst. They seem genuinely perplexed that I don’t join in their self-destructive, shaming self-talk. Seriously! I have gotten the weirdest looks and responses from women because when they start in on the self-hate conversations, I just sit there silently. Or, once I get to know them, I share my own journey. Most of my friends are men, but the few female friends that I can stomach actually have changed since being acquainted with me. Just yesterday I was with one of them and, not once did she criticize herself. We had a good time together. It was so refreshing!
    Well, I wrote this on my phone, so hopefully it’s coherent ( can’t easily re-read it). Thank you for your vulnerability in sharing this! I pray that God continues to work in your life so powerfully. He loves you so much 😊

    • Dr. Moshe
      Dr. Moshe
      January 26, 2017 at 2:08 am

      Thank you Teresa. It reads fine. Thanks for sharing and for helping lead others out of the commonly taken path of self-hate.

  • Jaynie
    January 27, 2017 at 3:00 pm

    Resounding with Truth and felt deeply here. :-).
    “For everyone who asks, receives; he who seeks, finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened. Which of you fathers, when your daughter asks for fish, will give her a snake instead?” – Luke 11:11-12.

    • Dr. Moshe
      Dr. Moshe
      January 27, 2017 at 4:21 pm

      Thank you Jaynie. Much appreciated. Lots of love to you.

  • Trish Block
    January 30, 2017 at 2:02 am

    So thrilled for you! How powerful. I am so blown away.
    First from your healing discovery, the beauty and joy of it and also your ability to recognize and admit it.
    Secondly, it affected me in two ways.
    One was the realization that your lack of self love stemmed from me as I am capable of loving everyone (even unconditionally) except myself.
    Two, I had the greatest awareness from your line loop from heaven that just like your daughter, Reia, a gift of pure love and joy from heaven, in God’s image, so are we all ,which I’ve always known,now thanks to you even me.
    God bless you, Moshe. 😇

    • Dr. Moshe
      Dr. Moshe
      January 30, 2017 at 2:06 am

      What a beautiful comment and very apropos commentor. 🙂
      You’re welcome and thank you too, so much. I’m so happy you got something from this.
      I think the lack of self love may have stemmed from you in part, but it’s in each of us, really.
      everyone has it to varying degrees. we had a big dose of it. it’s probably been passed for some time too.

  • Eliyahoo
    May 4, 2017 at 4:12 am

    Beautifully written. what beautiful gifts you received and shared here.

    • Dr. Moshe
      Dr. Moshe
      May 4, 2017 at 12:56 pm

      Toda achi.

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Dr. Moshe

A Universal Jew, Kabbalist, huge fan of Yeshua, Moshe Daniel Block (aka Dr. Moshe) is like a Da Vinci of our times. He’s a Naturopathic doctor, Homeopath, Musician, Author, Inventor, and Hermeticist.